As the titled said...

i am feeling super empty...

its kinda of expected... but its still sudden...

life is gonna change pretty soon...

what does a uni degree mean?

what comes after uni...?

i m seeing lesser and lesser the meaning of having a degree...

I have pretty much nothing interesting to blog for the past few months....

But recently I have picked up an old hobby that doesnt really seemed to suit me...
cross stitch...

Here is one of the completed ones...




Some outdated photos....

my very own instrument.. whahaha...


me and my beloved tpt...


and recently I have been on the Spore Flyer.. Here is one of the better pictures...


Looking at these pictures... I realised my look had somehow changed... Dunno if its true or not...

Feel so happy today... finally get to warm up with band...

I must confess... I am still pretty noob...

nvm... taken the first step.. practice harder....

Altho 2009 have passed for some time...

here are the wishes of mine in 2009....

1. play with the main band
2. get more life
3. go out with someone??
4. get my own trumpet

Resolution
1. save $$
2. spend at least once a week on readings
3. Finish all assignments within 2 hours

thats all.

till then... ciao.

Golf is a funny game.

Some hate.. some love... some just play for the sake of playing.

for me.. why am i playing?
fun? just for the sake of playing?

I have yet to find my passion back for the game.

in the back of my head... i wanna get better..
but my conscious mind is telling me otherwise.

when did i lose my passion?
thinking back... i lost it for volunteering...
lost volunteering for? ____ .

it is still a blank.

Sympho is fun...
golf have something lacking.

take up golf seriously again? i need khakis!!!

doubt anyone is gonna read... but its true... hahaha.

 

Today marks the end of my holiday.

And... I am still in holiday mood.

So how?

I am not too sure.

back to lessons.

I dunno what I did was right today.

But surely it broke my heart.

The relationship that I have with you is so special. I dunno who will fill up this void in my heart.

Perhaps a new passion n sport will take me away from this pain.

But I wont ever forget the emptiness it left me.

This thing made me truely think what I want for my future. A life of public service or just the perks from the job. But surely I hope to be in the uniform service.. but will I ever make it? Is this the career I want after striving so hard in uni?

I am gonna train myself mentally and physically to become an air force officer. If not it will be guards.

I may be stupid but I feel dumber if I do not follow my dreams.

my dream. my life.

 

I dont know why...

when i see them having a meeting.. an argument... it brings back memories.

These memories that are so dear to me seemed to be running away from me...

Time to move on? or time to take a step back and look?

i really hope new light will surface...

doing something with passion is something that is important.

looking for a new passion in my life.

I think 5 years is more than enuff...

Been through up and downs ... made many bonds as well as letting them wash away...

But whats next besides school?'

golf.. touch... animes.. martial arts...

i need something besides books... i really need motivation and right now i have none.